Broken & Trusting

Do you ever reach a point...that nothing makes sense anymore? Nothing you're doing...no where you go...nothing around you. And you don't know what next step to take...so you stop fighting & just stand still. But after a while, standing becomes sitting, sitting becomes lying down, and lying down becomes the only thing you know how to do anymore. There seems to be no strength left to climb your way back up & move on to a better place. You can try to throw yourself into this or throw yourself into that...but at the end of the day, it doesn't change the thoughts in your head or the worries & longings of your heart. You want to change things, change the world. You know you have a calling, a purpose...you just can't possibly imagine why...or how you'll ever reach it. Smiles & laughs are nice. Always "nice." Not always the truth. The truth is much deeper than the day to day words people exchange. Then again, what is there of truth in any words people speak at all now days? ...Where is MY truth? God is the only truth...the only hope...the only peace & fulfillment worth anything at all. My truth isn't from preachers or missionaries or church leaders or youth pastors; it isn't from "religion" or some nice "church thing," my truth is from times like these. Times like these when I question everything, long for anything, & hope for something. Because it's these times, that despite how I may feel, what I think, what I say, what I don't say.....I know God is here. Sometimes it's hard to run to Him because of the obstacles we create, but I know that as soon as I pull up from the ground & start fighting...He will be fighting twice as hard to hold me again..and at this point.....nothing else matters. Nothing is clear, I am overwhelmed with decisions I can't make, losses I have to face, & fears that I can't escape...but for now, I'll just lay in His arms. ..I'll trust You.

"Oh no, You never let go, through the calm & through the storm. Oh no, You never let go, every high & every low. Oh no, you never let go! Lord, You never let go of me."

"I wanna sit at Your feet, drink from the cup in Your hands, lay back against you and breathe, feel your heartbeat. This love is so deep...it's more than I can stand. I melt in Your peace...it's overwhelming."

"I will walk by faith even when I cannot see..Because this broken road, prepares Your will for me."

~Isaiah 41:10
~James 4:8

Short & Sweet

Hello fellow bloggers,

I'm new to this whole blogging thing (well...by "new"...I mean haven't done it since I was 14 on myspace), so I still have lots to learn, but I suppose this is my first official blog. This will quite possibly be the only "short & sweet" blog I ever post. I have lots of thoughts. There's no telling what the next blogs will include. But for now...goodbye. :)